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What a strange week or so it's been for me. All kinds of emotions running amuck.
I seem to be sensitive to odd things lately. I cried after an episode of MTV's "16 and Pregnant." Ha!Actually, I'm watching TLC's "Baby Story" right now... What's up with the bebes? I couldn't tell you.
I do not desire to have a baby, not one bit. Maybe it is just the notion of life beginning... I think i'd like a new beginning.Fascinations, fascinations. I feel particularly connected to the Voxtrot song "Kid Gloves" at the moment.
Yes, I'm a vanity whore.On sunday I sat alone at one of our lovely state parks under a tree with a big pillow, a blanket, an old school lawn chair, my sketch books, magazines and a novel. I drew, read, slept. There were families everywhere, children screaming, kites flying, dogs barking, the smell of grilled things in the air.... it was so beautiful. so so beautiful. I could see the ocean yet I was lying on the grass (I'm not a huge fan of sand). I need to remember that life can be like this too. I need to remember a lot of things. Some things I'll never forget :
1) My true love, Yellow. (baby blanket, tee) Where I go, Yellow goes.
2) The Lord's Prayer. Haha.
3) How to bake delicious banana bread
4) How to drive... Oh how I love driving around aimlessly.
5) my ABC's?Okay. It's raining. I'm going to watch two movies tonight because I have tomorrow off. I tried iced coffee today. Soy is great. Don't forget to be a kid and eat at some donuts. Cousin Abby... If this doesn't make you smile, you need some candy.
I sleep, and hope to dream for moments like this.
All of the time.
I spilled a couple drops of lentil soup on my summer bed. My summer bed meaning the futon in my parent's basement... it's nice and cool down here, like a cave. This is my cave. I called it "The Cave." Original. Who works on July 4th? Oh... yes... me. Of course. I feel primitive when I wear my hair in braids. I like this feeling. I don't generally like feelings. I do like the feeling of love, yes, I do. What else do I really like? Well:
+ Miniature swiss army knifes
+ Soft pillowcases
+ Scattegories
+ Plain (old fashioned) donuts
+ Pancakes without a recipe
+ Not biting my nails
+ Chisel tip sharpies