Just Hide It

Her heart is heavy so she puts on her purple bathrobe.
It is soft and flowing... a comfort.
The pillowcases are still in the dryer. Do they really serve a purpose?



Everything will be okay... but today, I am not. Tomorrow, I don't know.

I am becoming surrounded by things I have made. Paintings, drawings, objects, transparencies...
They are somehow all trying to do something for me, but what?
I suppose I will figure that out someday.

goob dye for now.

Goodbye September, Adieu!

I like old brooms, all bristled and such

My sinuses are in a jam... let's hope this gets fixed immediately

A sincere thank you to the legend Jim Henson and his brain

Consistently Inconsistent

She's like a little bird
She flies from a to b
To see what she can see

Oh Goldfrapp. Oh.

Consistency is something I lack in all areas of life.
I am inconsistent with blogging, running, making art... the list is endless, really.

Anyway, there isn't a need to dwell on this, the point is that I'm here now and I'm... in outer space?

Not really, but my mind has been for a while, and I feel that maybe, just maybe, it's coming down to land. Could it be so?

I'm hoping to find some consistency with landing... aren't we all sometimes?

Do I ask enough questions?

In other news, the Mergirl from my last distant post is famous now. Well... she's become a painting, and I love her. I love her as a painting, I'll have to post a picture some day. Oh I will.

I'm working on so many things, so many things I can't break down for you right now... but here is a glimpse.





I wish the best upon your wish...

It's All So Beautiful

Everything is changing. I am making it happen.
Will I be a mermaid on land again?
That's okay. I can grow legs.
I don't know, but I'm going to find you, Happiness.

Weave Some Wonder

What a strange week or so it's been for me. All kinds of emotions running amuck.
I seem to be sensitive to odd things lately. I cried after an episode of MTV's "16 and Pregnant." Ha!

Actually, I'm watching TLC's "Baby Story" right now... What's up with the bebes? I couldn't tell you.
I do not desire to have a baby, not one bit. Maybe it is just the notion of life beginning... I think i'd like a new beginning.

Fascinations, fascinations.

I feel particularly connected to the Voxtrot song "Kid Gloves" at the moment.
Yes, I'm a vanity whore.

On sunday I sat alone at one of our lovely state parks under a tree with a big pillow, a blanket, an old school lawn chair, my sketch books, magazines and a novel. I drew, read, slept. There were families everywhere, children screaming, kites flying, dogs barking, the smell of grilled things in the air.... it was so beautiful. so so beautiful. I could see the ocean yet I was lying on the grass (I'm not a huge fan of sand). I need to remember that life can be like this too. I need to remember a lot of things.

Some things I'll never forget :
1) My true love, Yellow. (baby blanket, tee) Where I go, Yellow goes.
2) The Lord's Prayer. Haha.
3) How to bake delicious banana bread
4) How to drive... Oh how I love driving around aimlessly.
5) my ABC's?

Okay. It's raining. I'm going to watch two movies tonight because I have tomorrow off. I tried iced coffee today. Soy is great. Don't forget to be a kid and eat at some donuts.

Cousin Abby... If this doesn't make you smile, you need some candy.

I Would Forget About Everything

I sleep, and hope to dream for moments like this.

Thank You Much?

Hi. Hi Hi Hi!

"Is it a dream? Is it a lie? I think I'll let you decide!"

That's from an Arcade Fire song... that I listen to when I run... that line always catches me, and I love it.

I'm about to clean up my room, or actually... I was until I decided to update, and now that I'm updating (in my comfy bed) I'm realizing how tired I am. Maybe I should nap. Working at an old school bakery = chronic need for daily naps.

I've been wearing these awesome socks all day. They give me magical abilities.



I also purchased these fantastical earrings while in Newport last week. Blurry picture, but the colors are what make me love them anyway.



I've been making these wondrous little drawings of insect/plant lady things... pictures to come, just not right now. I do however, have a very special picture to share... My beautiful cousin, who I've so delicately made anonymous.




And hey, it's going to be okay.

Sometimes?

All of the time.

To Grill is To Know

I spilled a couple drops of lentil soup on my summer bed. My summer bed meaning the futon in my parent's basement... it's nice and cool down here, like a cave. This is my cave. I called it "The Cave." Original.

Who works on July 4th? Oh... yes... me. Of course.

I feel primitive when I wear my hair in braids. I like this feeling. I don't generally like feelings. I do like the feeling of love, yes, I do.

What else do I really like? Well:
+ Miniature swiss army knifes
+ Soft pillowcases
+ Scattegories
+ Plain (old fashioned) donuts
+ Pancakes without a recipe
+ Not biting my nails
+ Chisel tip sharpies

Temporary

I am happy when I can rest my hand on your back,



I just want.....
so many things.

and yet, I want nothing as well.

Bananaramagrandma

THE BANANA CRAZE CONTINUES!!

Anyway, wow, I love banana flavored anything. I would probably even really enjoy banana toothpaste. Do they make that?

I have been promenading through various woods of southeastern Connecticut as of late... like every day after work. It's really lifting my spirits and cleansing my soul, you know? Good for me. All this overcast weather doesn't even phase me, I walk in rain or shine, meatballs or pancakes. Ha!

I cannot wait for the "Cloudy with a Chance of Meatballs" movie to come out!!! I should probably buy the book too, it is grand.



Okay, that is all. I love your feet.

Condensation On a Water Glass

There is a nice breeze circulating through my room. It carries a subtle banana fragrance. Why?


I have been listening to a lot of new music lately, right now, Cymbals Eat Guitar. Lovely.

I have to say, I thoroughly enjoy lounging around in a particular pair of sweatpants (thanks J.Crew) that I own. Today is one of my days off. My brain believes it's Sunday, but my ears know better. It's too quiet to be Sunday. Not enough lawn mowers howling, children squeaking or voices in the house to be Sunday.

I... don't know how to finish this sentence?

Small details from my surroundings make me feel better:
- small, sticky patch on corner of storage unit/night stand where gum was placed
- two patches of paint missing on basement wall where a short movie was filmed (by me) 3.5 years ago
- pieces of seaglass from a happy day...

I'm caught in old feelings, afraid to make new ones.
What are you afraid of?

Maybe a giant rabbit?

Sunday Sundae Sun Day

Onion Rolls!

Walking places makes me happy. I was happy when I walked to Rite Aid today.

Reel a Fishy In

I am so very sorry for neglecting you blog, forgive me?

I don't have much to say, so I will make lists, one of my favorite things to do.

Around me there are/is:
- a huge stack of old Nylon magazines
- three pairs of shoes
- an empty yogurt cup
- a male hula doll (from flea market in hawaii!)
- a drawing i did of an antique gas pump
- brightly colored band-aids
- a yellow strainer full of bay leaves
- a large masonite board
- mixed feelings of hope, confusion, dreaminess, loss and maybe just maybe, some inspiration.

There are quite possibly a bunch of woeful comments I could make about my current state of mind, but that's not what this blog is about. This is all about good things, and you know, even bad things have good things inside of them... I'll revisit a quote I used in my high school graduation speech: "Every adversity carries with it the seed of an equal or greater benefit." That was inside a fortune cookie of mine.

I can be a lovely girl, I can bake lovely things. Won't you be my friend?

Randomness:

That, bless their souls, is the first type of fish I ever caught... A Bluegill!




I'm into quotes today, so to end, from A Tree Grows in Brooklyn,
"...I guess being needed is almost as good as being loved. Maybe better."

So I Could Be Lovely

Sometimes it's okay to sulk while listening to Bon Iver... or listen to Bon Iver while sulking, is there a difference?

What I currently live for:
Drawing class
Lula magazine
Working out
Skins

Maybe I should move to the U.K.?




"Yeah. Wow, lovely... no. But I like that you're funny looking. It's cute, like, wow."

Little Heads

I am overcome with [ ] and feeling very quiet.

It's times like these where I wish I had mad embroidery skills, soon I will.

At least there is tea and honey... Oh at least, not all is lost.



"And in, the morning when it's cold, an easy girl to hold..."





"It reminds me that it's not so bad, it's not so bad"



...Keep on melting on

So Good

I have a female crush on Ladyhawke. Solid.



Not much is better than freshly washed sheets AND pillow cases.

My body has been abused, time to rest.

When You Do

I'm on a blog kick! It feels good!

Last night was a crazy yet refreshing night, full of mingling and new faces (with beards, ha!) and wildness. oh montreal.

It was really a nice day weather wise too, and tomorrow will be better (warmer), 43 maybe? psyched.

I discovered some excellent new music today as well, take a listen:
- Vetiver (Tight Knit)
- Ladyhawke (Ladyhawke) - she is my new idol.
- Loney Dear (Dear John)
- Thieves Like Us (Play Music)
- Deastro

Music compliments of Urban Outfitter's playlist... I really must hand it to them on the picks.

You know what I would love to do? Well I'll tell you:
- Design skateboard/snowboard graphics
- Design tattoos, on the more fine art/sketchy side
- Read The Principles of Uncertainty again (will most likely start tonight)
- Create an installation involving lots of chains, different sizes and types of metals... like a chain necklace gone crazy all over your room bonanza!
- Eat some croissants



Goodbye, winter. Rest well and try not to be so grumpy when you come back.

The Perfectly Fitted Trash Bag

I have to say, Microwave Zucchini Fish Chowder (random recipe I have) sounds disgusting.
I don't believe I will ever make it, ever.

I cleaned the floors in the apartment today, everything is so shiny and clean, therefore so am I.

Only about a month left until year two of university comes to a close, eep!

I heart the new Killers album and rice cakes with jam. Love love love to all.



p.s. dear montreal, please raise your temperatures immediately, we're in a fight if you don't. love always, emily.

Baby, you are Sex!

It's raining right now and it makes me long for things...
I've never loved night rain so much as I do lately.

I just watched Empire Records, 10th grade nostalgia.

I'm not a big fan of chewing gum, or other people chewing gum...
but I bought three packs the other day, man I'm changing so much!
SIGNIFICANT. ANGST! GRR!

No, not really, but here is what is really, oh really?

(click me to make me bigggg)

Maybe Fuzzy Bunnies

So, this blog, like most projects/people/things, has progressed into something entirely different than it was when it started... but that's okay, this is life. It's really quite miscellaneous, a place for me to tack up images and thoughts. One of these days (this summer?) I'll have my own website and that will be fantastic, because all my art has been kept fairly private... time to get it out there. Now, I will make some lists.

Right now:
a) I really need a warm embrace. Preferably of the snuggling genre.
b) I am feeling too tired and worn for another long greyhound trip (tomorrow)
c) I have end of winter blues. Make it stop.
d) I miss you.

Today/Tonight:
a) I ate Indian food and it was tasty but my appetite was lacking.
b) I will do laundry and pass the time by drawing
c) I manned a water stop for a 1/2 marathon... fun to be on the other side.

I'm currently infatuated with:
a) "Sex on Fire" by kings of leon
b) Anything Animal Collective (they are the musical version of myself)
c) Sleeping

It's nice when:
a) I rediscover old clothes and like to wear them
b) The peepers and crickets come out
c) Film develops nicely
d) The sex is on fire.




I... Miss.... You.

Fak!

I am so NOT twenty years old.


Excited to:
-Shoot for project in CT
- with tiny backpacks
- with dad
-Draw creatures and SUPERSIZE them

The Melting Process

I miss the sound of rain at night, though I do love the silence of snow. I'm ready for spring.
I'm also ready for life. It's going to be rough, pursuing what I love... but I'm an optimist and an adventurer.

Things I heart:
1) Eggplant & Olive hummus!!!!
2) Soft light in between buildings
3) Organic shapes
4) Drawing monsters
5) Some boy in rochester



Sometimes I build forts.

Ellie

Sweet summer night and I'm stripped to my sheets
Forehead is leaking my AC squeaks
And a voice from the clock says "You're not gonna get tired"
My bed is a pool and the wall's on fire
Soak my head in the sink for a while
It chills my neck and it makes me smile
But my bones have to move and my skin's gotta breathe
You pick up the phone and I'm so relieved

You slide down the stairs to the eager street
And the sun is left with slippery feet
And I want to walk around with you
And I want to walk around with you
And be here with you


It doesn't really matter, I'll go where you feel
Home for the breeze, get a midnight meal
I'll point in the windows, you point out the parks
Rip off your sleeves and I'll ditch my socks
Dance to the songs from the cars as they pass
Weave through the cardboard, smell that trash
Walking around in our summertime clothes
Know where to go where our bodies go

And we'll breath the dawn in its morning blues
With purple yawns, you'll be sleeping soon
And I want to walk around with you
And I want to walk around with you

When the sun goes down we'll go out again!
Don't cool off, I like your warmth

Let's leave the sound of the heat for the sound of the rain
It's easy to sleep when it wets my brain
It covers my rest with a saccharine sheen
Kissing the wind through my window screen
But restless is causeless and I cannot hide
So much of my mind that it spills outside
Do you wanna go stroll down a financial street?
Our clothes might get soaked
But the buildings sleep

And there's no one pushing for a place
As we enter at an easy pace
And I want to walk around with you
And I want to walk around with you
I want to walk around with you
I want to walk around with you
I want to walk around with you
I want to walk around with you

Just you

-Animal Collective

This Is Why I Love You